I finished watching my pre-screening of October Baby for the 3rd time. I am in awe of this movie…I am not going to ruin it for you since the movie hasn’t actually come out yet, but I do want to comment on a few things… Was it made about someone else’s life or mine? I know it wasn’t made about mine but the similarities are unbelievable. The abortion, the pieces missing, the questions, the medical and emotional struggles, the amazing parents that loved us so much that it’s even harder to let go…even the protective Dad (which now I realize I am very thankful for as I am older.) Each time I have watched the movie, it has hit me more and more how much “everything is connected,”- the doctors and the people in this girl’s life kept saying that her medical problems, her emotional suffering/diffuculties, her need to take so much medication, her sense of her self or lack of self confidence/worth, not feeling wanted, not feeling like she belonged, not feeling like she deserved the life she had…etc. It was all linked back to one traumatic event from our birth/infant days. Almost every single thing lined up with my life, with how my medical problems have progressed and been, how I have felt emotionally, spiritually and how I have felt “different” and “unwanted.” It all links back to the trauma I went through in the womb during a failed abortion attempt, a traumatic and premature birth, months alone in the hospital, and many medical problems as an infant…and even now as a young adult. God placed his hand on me to protect me but I still have marks and baggage that I carry around with me every day from the way I was born/from the failed abortion attempt–I just have to trust God that I can live with it, I have to figure out His will for my life even with this hardship that will be here the rest of my life.
The most beautiful part of the movie was the UNCONDITIONAL LOVE of her adoptive parents…her TRUE parents…had for her. The way they prayed for her when she was born and the way they cared for her as she walked through some of the toughest times of her life as she found out the truth of her birth–Is this not like me? God has blessed me with the most wonderful, faithful, prayerful, Godly and LOVING parents a child could ever have. My parents did just that- they prayed over me and for me before they even knew I was their child/before they could take me home from the hospital…they prayed for me and stood faithful by my side through long months of body casts and medical problems as an infant. They loved me unconditionally not knowing what the future could hold because of my traumatic birth. And they faithfully trusted God as I searched for my birth mother and found out the truth of her attempted abortions. My parents were right there with open arms when I came home with hours and hours of tears in my eyes. They are the reason I am alive today- they are the reason I can stand up and fight for LIFE- they are the reason I LOVE them no matter what hardship we or I may go through; they are the only TRUTH that I know (besides God) because they have never left me, they have never not wanted me, they have always cared and supported me. They are the ones that taught me forgiveness; the forgiveness that I receive so many times when I don’t deserve it and the forgiveness I have given my birth mother! My parents are my rock. I love the way October Baby shows how AMAZING adoptive parents are–because it’s true! I love you Mom and Dad <3
Many blessings to all adoptive parents and all parents who love their kids with unconditional love–You are one of the most beautiful GIFTS God gave this world.
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