You know, when I’m in the moment often times I don’t think about the whole picture of my decision making…I forget that the choices that I make not only affect my own life but my parents lives, my sisters life, my extended families lives and my fiancé and his kids’ lives.
I have made so many decisions in my past that have and will affect me for the rest of my life. What if I had kept that promise ring to save myself for marriage that my Dad gave me before highschool? Why was that promise broken so quickly?
I ponder my heart and how I operate quite a bit… I feel that I am heading in the right direction; I have a huge desire to get involved in my church community and commit to making time for it despite my crazy travel schedule, I have set boundaries in my relationships, I am pursuing the things God has called me to do like speaking for unborn, mothers and fathers in crisis pregnancy centers and/or men and women who are seeking abortion services.
I wish I knew the answers to the struggles that I had growing up…and I wish I could say that deciding to do what’s right and following God is easy and as pleasant as a beautiful day on the beach…but it’s not. It’s scary, it’s uncomfortable, it’s not what the world makes look appealing to us…BUT it is what’s right and it is what is going to make every relationship (earthly and spiritually) the best it can be.
I know that all of us, including myself, have a lifetime of learning to follow God, trust God, make wise decisions because theyre whats best for us…etc. It’s a struggle, its uncomfortable…
I have done a lot of things in my past that I am ashamed of. I have hurt the people that I love the most. I have disappointed people, I have disappointed myself and I have disappointed God. But that’s where GRACE has been meeting lately…telling me that I can start fresh every day.
What are you struggling with?
Will you let God meet you where you are and start a fresh relationship with Him and others?
I’d love to hear your thoughts.